argh...damn!! Why I CANT get anything that I want? Okay, its fine because of course I cant have anything..but for things that I HAVE NEVER had?? please. Its been so hard for me lately, why life dont give me a chance to feel the happiness just like others. I''m not saying that I dont have HAPPINESS in life.. I HAVE.. my family, my friends are my happiness. But I'm suffering for something or maybe someone that I JUST cant have it !