this week I'm gonna end my suffers.
I'm gonna complete all my assignments.
I MEAN IT.
I REALLY.
I HOPE. hehe
i hate it when ma friends make an issue such a big fuss and they’re like cant calm their tilts
and
when i ask what happen,
they are like..” um.. nuthing…”
what the... THANK YOU VERY MUCH !
fuck you biatchhhh!! you such an attention whore.
i dont care i dont care i dont care
i wont care i wont care i wont care
anymoreeee...
okay, yesterday was my last-crush-moment. thank god it didnt reach one year yet. i've wasted my time for about 8 months *ider* okay he is a good guy, i mean everybody wants him. he got the look an everything but biatch you annoyed me. there are many things about you that not under my criterion but when it comes to you i just ignored it and you know how unfair i am to myself? you just dun know. u make me hate you twice. wow! congrats !
yes. i want to have ur attention, i want to have ur heart, i want to boast around about you *when we have special bond hell-no-i-dun-want-it-anymore*, i want to make everybody's jaw drop seeing you with me. i guess my intentions WERE not right but that's how i felt. Its just make me regret, i dont even forget my first crush yet, but when you came into my life---------------i just forgot bout him. DARNNNNN !
u sucks at taking care others' feeling. u said that I made you dissapointed but u made me even worse.
so- for those who are over-sensitive and emotional. i bid my goodbye.
i regret nothing.
i dun know how you guys live ur life. okay, reminder- for those who in happy mood, please leave my blog because you will see me so pathetic.
these days, i've been thinking about my life. LIKE A LOT. i'm stuck with unsettle things. I know ur life must have been more sucks than me, but please this is my first. I can cry without a single reason pun. thankfully tears wont come out in front of my friends. now I can see the effects of run away from the problems. PROBLEMSSSS. but i cant do anything else. i'm helpless. I dun want to put my head on others' shoulders because they have their own problem. I wish I could scream so that the burden pour out. Inside of me is very shaky and I can really fall anytime now. i tried to put aside of my feelings and just cherish every breathe that I take, but as I breathe, it gives me more pain and pain. my life seems perfect but IT WAS. maybe i'm just thinking too much. but you see, ppl wont treat you as you want its a normal thing but i really need tiny respect for me just to stay alive even it is for a second. and i figured out that's not my problem too. feel empty maybe yup. I tried to be happy as I am, i'm still trying but it wont last long. sorry. this is my biggest breakdown in 19 years. I just can't.
i'm not the best creature in the world. I'm not pweety, i'm fat, i eat a lot, i use my parents' money, i'm not using blackberry and all sucks. haha. but sometimes i feel not. okay.. do you know when you see a snail in the rain out of the window and you inside the house and you feel great that you are inside the house. That's how i feel. Its not that I'm laughing to others' suffers or what but sometimes they deserve to suffer. Okay i sounds like a wicked wicked combo wicked witch. oh.. its personal. have a good dayhhh :D
I shouldn't have done this. hihihi
sometimes life is bitter to swallow. life is more easier with you guys :')
THANK YOU GUYS
meia why you dig up the past?
you make my eyes teary
^^
