Assalamualaikum. In shaa Allah in just less than 15 days, I will be someone's wife. I'm nervous like hell but to be honest I'm relieved to actually bring my relationship to 'halal' status (^.^) Haha. No matter how excited we are to be pronounced as a husband and wife, we realised that we both have worries  and insecurities about our future together. Hence, I'm writing this letter for you my love, about things that I might not have guts to say but I think you need to know how I truly feel about it. Of course I'm not posting it in Facebook since I feel just fine to write for my blog since there's no one will read it anyway *shrug*

The Thank You's

First of all, I want to start this letter by thanking you for all of the things that you have done for me. It sounds cliche but I think it is the best and suitable expression that I can use to describe how thankful I am to have you in my life. Thank you for always be there for me whenever I needed you even though we are in long distance relationship for two years (and counting) now. Thank you for always be faithful to me no matter how unfair the treatment that I gave to you. Thank you for all the time that you have spent and wasted on me, back and forth to Kuantan-JB-Kuantan just to see me every month. Of course, thank you for all the money that you have saved, for my hantaran and all the expenses that you have spent to make me happy (flowers, food, presents and your expenses going to JB). There's no words can describe how I'm touched with all the things that you have done for me. To be honest, I dont think I would be able to repay all of the love that you gave to me. You made me feel like a princess with your love. You taught me what a love is. Thank you. Thank you so much. 

Things I want you to know

1. To be a wife (soon) will be tough on me and maybe it would be difficult on you too, as a husband. We both are newbies in this marriage world, and I really hope we both can help each other to get use to it. I am an independent person, so it is hard for me to resist myself for doing things alone, and I know at some point, you do not like because you might feel that I disregard you as my husband. However, it is something that out of my control. I'm so used to make my own decision and to do everything by myself since I'm the eldest and you know how my family relies on me so much. Therefore, if I ever made you feel ignored and disregard, I'm sorry. Please, please tell me nicely that I need to think about you and our family too. 

2. You knew that I have sleeping disorder which is bruxism. I might make too much noise while I'm sleeping. I really hope that you could stand me for you whole life and I promise I will do the teeth guard when I have money to do so. If you think I'm making too much noise until you lose  a wink to sleep, can you just wake me up and I will move to other place to sleep. Hahaha yeah, I would do that because I know it's hard to sleep beside a person who have bruxism. 

3. I'm a hotpot. You knew that VERY well isn't? Since it is in my blood to be easily get mad and irritated with things that I dont like, I hope you could hand me more patience that you have given me for the past three years. Our problems/ conflict  in marriage might be bigger than we have faced up till now, therefore, I may show you unpleasant gestures (such as jeling, buat muka and those stuff) and maybe I raise (unintentionally) my voice to you. Once again, I'm sorry in advance about things that I would do to you. I'm still trying to get rid this habit and I hope you could understand. I hope you can treat me nicely regardless how rude I am to you. I think, as a husband you must help me to be more chill and calm whenever we're in the rough boat. 

4. Despite of all the imperfections that I have (now and then) , I hope you can accept me with open heart since our true colours will be truly shown (more) after we both got married. I hope we both can embrace the flaws and use the flaws to tighten our love as a husband and wife <3

For now, that's all that I want you to know. Marriage is not easy but I know, with you it will be effortless. Let's build a happy family here and in Jannah (in shaa Allah). Cant wait for an exciting life adventure with you :)

Assalamualaikum and good day guys! Ya Allah, it has been so long! I'm not busy, it's just....I write but most of it I saved it as drafts. Argh so lazy to finish what I've started. One day, I pledge to myself to finish it! One fine day.... :P

Okay the title refers to the part time job that I've been doing for past few months. It is a pleasure for me to write and earn money by it. So, UTM Social Media Ambassador Team is a team created by UTM Corporate Affair in order to promote UTM to the public. Instead of relying on the staff to promote UTM, they appointed some of the students to do some contributions for UTM. Alhamdulillah, among of all students, I was chosen and I'm really honored! 

Other than contributing something to the uni, I got a chance to meet new friends (which are most of the my juniors and one of them is a PhD student) from other faculties. Furthermore, I got to know some of the staffs and I feel like I got a new family since they helped me a lot through out this journey even though, we're just became friends. It is so much fun and I learn so many things especially about my university. Other than that, I feel like I have improved my writing skills since I need to write and revise also edit my articles before I publish it at UTM Connect. I bet most of students in UTM itself did not know the existence of this site. But, here you are! Please make some of your time to read this site :) 

I cannot wait to do more than just writing articles about UTM. It's just one of the things that I like to do not because I am hired to do so, it's because one of my hobby and something innate. This opportunity is one of the great opportunities and a lifetime experience that I will cherish and I'm thankful for for the rest of my life. 

P/s: If you have anything that you'd like me to write, please contact me. Thank you! ;)

Hai! Assalamualaikum. Today, I'm going to review my favorite blusher from Wet n Wild in shade Pearlescent Pink.  I cant tell you how long I've been procrastinating to do the review of this thing. It has been 5 months since I've been using this product and today I made it- writing a review for this product. 

As you know, Wet n Wild produced a lot of good products with a lower price. In Malaysia, if you're wondering, you can get Wet n Wild products in Sasa. So, I bought this blusher when there was a Christmas sale at Sasa. Sasa always does sale throughout the year,you just have to go there and check on them regularly. 

The packaging 

I love the packaging of this product. It's thin and handy which doesn't take up a lot of space in my handbag or beauty pouch. When you purchased this, it comes along with a small brush which I think it's very convenient if you're not a person who carries around beauty brushes. The brush is a little bit hard and you need to dust off the extra product on the brush so that you dont apply a lot of the blush on your cheek. To be honest, I used the brush each and everytime I'm applying this blusher because I'm so lazy to use the blusher brush. However, on certain occasions, I'll opt to use the blusher brush to get better application. But the brush doesnt harm you :)

The ingredients

I'm just not the type of person who dont really care about the ingredients of the products unless it contains paraben or heavy metal. However, the main ingredients of this product is talc. A popular beauty youtuber like Tati, she doesnt prefer a product with talc. Long story short, talc caused a lot of ovary cancer. yes, it's dangerous but I like this blusher :( The rest ingredients like boron nitride and  zinc stearate are good for absorbing the oil on our face, opacity and so you can apply this product smoothly. Apart of talc, I think the rest of ingredients are safe to use. 

The Coverage & Durability

I can say this blush is very pigmented yet it gives you a very natural blush. That's an extra point for this product. Other than that, this product can be applied easily. The last time I tested it out, this blusher lasted up to 6 hours without retouch up. So, you can always build up the coverage depending on your preferences and if you applied too much, you can always cover it up with your pressed powder or compact powder. It's just so easy. You can watch this video to see how the applications and little bit review from Tati :)

The Price

As the price, it's affordable and reasonable. I think it's a good bargain. If u could see, the normal price is RM 27.50 but since I bought it during Christmas sale, it's only RM 25.00. I have nothing to complain :P

All in all, I'm so in love with this product. For a cheapskate like me, this blusher is like a wonder for me. I give this 5/5 and would like to repurchase it. Recommended ! Thank you! 

Just as much as I thought I'm starting be okay again, life hits me again. Whenever I thought I'm strong enough, sadness came as terrifying as lightning hits me hard straight to my heart. I wonder why every apocalypse has been following  me since then. I have a lot of fights that I need to battle. A fight with me, life and dreams. So far, I lost of all of it. I'm just so tired to be in a battle anymore because I know that I'll be losing. More and more of myself gone and what's left are layers of veils

Life isnt a guarantee. If I think I'm doing good, it'll never be good enough. No matter how hard I pushed myself to the limit, I'll always been dragged to the deep dark place. I almost reach for the sun but for the next second I'm at the rock bottom. So tell me, what should I do to make sure at least I'm making out of the battle alive. I dont need to win the war. I dont need it.

However, I know as long as I still get the chance to breath in the air, there's always be a chance of me winning the war. Maybe it's just a matter of time. TIME. 

Assalamualaikum! Hey everybody! How's it going? I'm doing perfectly fine and Alhamdulillah feeling so good this week. Alright, today's post is maybe gonna be the lamest post ever. However, I'd like to share it because I think there are thousands of people out there are currently having LDR-Long-distance Relationship. As the name sounds, yes it sucks. 

Let me brief you with my LDR story. I started with LDR since 2014 when my fiance (boyfriend at that moment) was graduating from uni. Yes, we studied at the same place but he's one year senior. After that, he was working in Kuala Lumpur and currently he's working in Kuantan. Things got worst, when my father passed away few months after I started my LDR and it's just so sad that he cannot be with me physically although I know he'll be always there for me. 

When we started with LDR, we fought a lot. I always claimed he didn't have time for me, he would claimed that I was just being nonsense and annoying, I accused him to hate me and having another girl which I couldnt appoint who's the girl was. I was so insecure and he was so stressed in adapting with his working life and adjusting with new life-being far away from his family and obviously me. Teehee. 

Not just accusing my partner of things that he didn't do, I was very jealous of my friends whom can meet their love everyday. Yes, I didn't meet him everyday pun when he was in uni, but I could see him whenever I wanted to. Then, what made me so upset was there's a friend who actually say, it was nothing to be LDR and I was just being dramatic and guess who is losing her mind when she had to be far from his boyfriend for a week? Kah!

As the time passed by, I found out that LDR has made our love stronger and better. We learnt how to communicate a lot, we learnt how to be patient towards each other and most important thing is we learnt how to be more understanding of other people. We're still suffering with the 'temporary separation' when we need to be apart after short meeting of LDR. But it wasn't that bad, at least we have something to look forward to in weeks. It's just so good to know that somewhere in the nearest future, you'll be able to meet your loved ones after a long time apart. 

Here's " LDR Survival Kit" that could help people like me or any couples that may have just started with LDR.

1. Trust

This may sounds so cliche, but it's the truth people! I think most of the cases where the LDR didnt work out is both parties dont trust each other. If you dont trust your partner, a lot of misunderstanding and doubts that actually dont even exist! Believe me, it's actually the pillar of any relationships, LDR, non-LDR relationship, friendship or even your relationship with God needs trust and believing.  If the trust is there, things may hurt less and will be going well without you realize it. But if your partner has betrayed your trust more than once, oh that might be another story. 

2. Say "I Love You" and "I Miss You" as much as you can.

I'm not going to lie, but we always say we love each other maybe hundred times a day. It's very important because since you're apart only words can make you believe that he/she is feeling the same way. It'll help to wash away some of the pain and brighten up your day. Ah, I love the feeling :)

3. Regularly updating

I dont know how other's relationship works but we are always updating to each other of what we're doing or what we gonna do next. It's just giving a simple details of what's going on with each other's lives. The reason behind it is not we're not trusting each other, but it's just to make sure that "you-are- so- important- to -me -and -I- think- you -should-know-this" feeling. You'll feel the sense of belonging and feel needed somehow. Idk maybe some of you just hate this but it wasnt that hard these days. we got different kinds of instant messaging apps so why not?

4. Of morning call & night call
This might cost you a lil bit but it works! Morning call isnt just for wake up call but it's for communicating after long sleeping hours. You might miss him/her as you sleep isnt? In morning call, we're usually talking about plans for the day and maybe telling each other about nonsense dream that we had last night. Night call is basically when you're about to end your day. You can tell him/ her about your day-was it bad or good or exciting or ask him/ her about anything that you cannot tell through message. The function of these two calls is simple, to listen his or her voice. It's just so soothing after a long tired day, you could hear your love's voice and if the day is just so wrong, maybe it would be better a little bit :)

5. Surprises and events
To be in a relationship is undeniably will cost you lots of money! Haha true true but I think it will be a worth investments for those who are lucky. Fret not, if your investments just went to the drain, it doesnt mean you're a loser. At least, you once made other people happy. Isnt that good? Ok, back to the topic.. For surprises and events sometimes it doesnot have to be grand or took a lot of effort but sometimes a random and easy surprises such as giving flowers or notes through email would do :)

6. Spent your time and money like a boss
When you have the chance to see each other after a long, hard LDR, you two should enjoy yourselves! Go for things that you wanted to do when you're apart. Like me and my fiance, we always do some sort of "Bucket Lists" of things that we wanted to do if we see each other. You know, things like, eating at the new restaurant, going to cinema, jog together yeah it's very simple. Take a lot of pictures, talk a lot, do not bother of using your freaking phone because phone can wait. Last but not least, maybe it's time to use your money-buy couple shirts, eat fancy food, go to trips or buy presents for them as souvenir of your meeting.

Yes, it may sound tedious but you only need simple and effortless gestures to tell your partner, ' even though we're apart, there's nothing will change my love for you'. You really need to be patience and just know that all these things are worth the wait :) 

Assalamualaikum and hello everyone! Oh my god, my last post was on 26th January and it has been almost 3 months. It's just I'm super busy since my semester has started last February and the workloads are just too much too handle. But luckily I still alive! Yaghhhh~~!

Now back to the business. Last February, I went to AEON Bandaraya Melaka to get some stuff. Suddenly, a promoter from Euphoria booth (which is inside the AEON shop) came and approached to promote their makeup products. What's really attracted me was THEY GAVE FREE MAKEUP SESSION. O M G. I went there without second thoughts and I really enjoyed it. Euphoria is selling Victoria Jackson makeup product that you can actually find it at Watsons. Personally, I really like their makeup products, but since I'm so broke right now I just cant get one.  Gotta save some money because I really want to have their powder foundation. Pray for me ^^

So, at that moment I was still searching for the cure of my breakouts. Allahu, I've never had breakouts before but I was so freaking out with my own skin because it's just worst! I asked the promoter to suggest me with the product that could actually help me handling the breakout. So she recommended  Aqua Series + Purifying Cleansing Water because she said it could help me to repair the skin from the inside. BUT BUT BUT.... THE PRICE IS JUST FREAKING FREAKING EXPENSIVE. Because it's just a cleansing water guys! Since I was so desperate, then I gave a shot. It cost me RM 150 for 150 ml. The original price is RM 175. Gila. I'm telling you this is the most expensive makeup I have ever bought. I cried inside and prayed hard it is gonna be good for my skin. 

So, as for the ingredient, as stated on the front side, it's made for oily and acne prone skin, non-comedogenic also oil-free and alcohol-free. From the front description, I mean I'M ATTRACTED ALREADY. I have oily skin, i dont need alcohol to make my skin dry and it's non-comedogenic which means it will not clog your pores. THAT IS GOOD ENOUGH BABY. But on the ingredient at the back, it does still have methyl-paraben but not as main ingredient which is forgiven and has perfume in it. The perfume works really well.....because I smell like a rich person. It does smell like SKII product gotta tell ya that. hehe..

It removes my makeup very well. Even the eye-makeup. Just drop 5 drops of this cleasing water on the cotton pad and you just wipe it off all over your face. In one wipe, it does clear all the makeup. But if I go for heavy makeup, I use the makeup remover wipe first, and then use this cleansing water to remove all of the dirt. I LOVE IT. I JUST  LOVE IT. 

Even though it's FREAKING EXPENSIVE, gotta tell ya it works! IT IS A HOLY GRAIL product for me. My skin got better in just less than 2 weeks, my breakouts just disappeared and I got better complexion! For the record, I didnt use any skincare product at that time except for moisturizer. I just clean my face using this product and gently rinse it off with the clean tap water. IT REALLY WORKED!  Tak percaya? See this.....

Assalamualaikum. Hye, I'm back! So today, I'm going to review one of the most phenomenal product from the drugstore which is Catrice's All Around Concealer. To be honest, I bought this kit because people keep talking about it. So, I couldn't resist the temptation to try this product. Well, it's cheap compared to the others so I dont see any harm if I bought and try this kit. 

You know, Catrice does promotion like everyday. So, during I bought this kit it's like the cheapest price I've ever seen which was RM 16.24. That time, this kit was the only the kit left on the rack. So, lucky me! *hikhik* Catrice is one of the popular drugstore brand which sells probably the cheapest makeup yet they're very promising product especially this concealer kit. 

This kit is very handy, light and mobile. So basically, it would fit in your handbag and it wouldn't take up a lot of spaces. However, it has no mirror so you can see how much concealer left in your kit. This concealer kit is cream-based kit which I personally think, it blends better with the beauty blend. 

Since I'm very new to makeup, I'm very delighted to see this kit because it has different colours for different purposes. As you can see, this kit has 5 different colours which are green, pink, beige in three tones. For green it is used to cover the redness, pink to cover your dark circle while beige is used to covers imperfections such as scars, pigmentation and stuff. For green and pink, you apply it before you apply the foundation. While, the beige coloured concealer can be applied after the foundation. I think, this kit is really good in concealing however the colour might be visible. But fret not, if you use full coverage foundation, it would really help to cover the colour of concealer itself. 

One more thing about this kit. I use the lightest shade of beige coloured concealer as a highlighter. I love contouring so, I found the lightest shade can be practically used for highlighting. It's a good credit for this product. 

As for the ingredients of this product, I don't see anything that I usually afraid of such as paraben, heavy metals or titanium dioxide. Therefore, I can say that it's safe to use :) In shaa Allah. Unfortunately, I may not repurchase this kit because I think I have to do a lot of work and need to use it with full coverage foundation which I do not prefer. Yet, I think I give this product 4/5 because since it does well in concealing AND it is also cheap! Everybody loves cheap things!!! 

Assalamualaikum. So today I'm going to review this make up remover towelettes that I bought in Watson. After 20% less, this wet tissue costs me only RM7.92. This is my fourth make up remover tissue after Biore, Simple and Daiso's. I've tried this product and I think it cleans my face well. After that my skin feels smoother and moisture. 

I bought this product just because it's cheaper than the rest. I want to stick with Biore's make up remover however, I want to try it because it contains Argan Oil. Argan Oil is very popular these days therefore, I wanted to know what it benefits on my skin. 

Based from what I read and what I heard, Argan oil is from a tree called Argan. It's a fruit that rich with Vitamin E and fatty acid. As we know Vitamin E is very good for the skin while fatty acid is very popular for as cleansing agent. Argan oil functions to moisturize, anti-aging and heal the skin. One of the reasons I bought this make up remover, I heard Argan Oil is good for acne prone skin because it is non greasy so it will not give you oily effect. To know more about Argan oil you can just click here. 

Hello everybody! It seems that I appear too much too often these days. Gotta tell you, I'm on my semester break, therefore I think it's a golden opportunity for me to just being lazy and sitting in front of laptop whenever I'm done with the house chores. Life's great but it's better for me to just stay at home. Plus, I'm pretty broke so that's how you cant never see me out so much. Another secret is, I'm one of Cullens :P

Well, well back to the topic! Kimchi Maggi! Back to 2010, I started to be one of KPOP Fans, so kimchi is not an alien for me. I've tasted Kimchi when I was in Seoul Garden but since that place is too pricey for me, I rather looking at Kimchi on my screen. However, two days ago, I was so bored at home, I decided to go out and I went to one of my supermarket nearby. I saw HALAL Kimchis. But it was for me like too pricey. A small package costs me about RM 7.50 so I rounded off it became RM 8.00. However, maybe I was just too bored so I bought it after hard contemplating. Since I cant find any Ramen which I really confident that it was Halal, so I just stick to my favourite Maggi Kari.

                                                                                               

As for me, it wasn't that delicious till I need to tell everyone,"You berdosa kalau tak cuba ni!" hahaha.. But, I think it was not that bad but I dont think it was like really scrumptious or something. It's worth a try. 3.5/5. 

Assalamualaikum and hye everybody! Happy New Year semua... Alhamdulillah got to see the world in the year of 2016 :) 2015 was not my favourite year but I learnt a lot. So, as for the starter, I want to say that I'm so happy because lots of people I met told me that I'm positive-ier than I was before. For me, that's very dear compliment and I felt so sexy about it somehow haha. 

I'm here not to brag but I actually did some changes in my life. Means my life is dynamic and not just 'jumud' at the place I was at. Therefore, this post is dedicated to my positive-ier self. I just want to talk about it so that in the future, whenever I feel down and negative, I can always refer to this post again. I think it might be a good reference too. Here are the steps of leading a positive mind. 

1. Forgive yourself and others. 

I only realize the power of forgiveness when I just reflect back things that I've done to shape my positive mind. *cewah* When I looked back, I did forgive a lot of people and myself sendiri no matter how big or small the mistakes were. Or, at least I try to forgive them. The thing about it is, when you forgive yourself and other people, it's easier for you to actually move on with things that membelenggu your life. Honestly, I dont know how can I sleep so soundly before this by being so revengeful and mad creature. It might take the whole life to learn to forgive many levels of mistakes but it will just make you a better person and I think that's a great reward that you could give to yourself. So, HOW? HOW TO START? Easier said than done. But it's not possible *wink wink* Whenever you feel mad and so benci to other people, you can just say, "Takpelah. maybe aku pun ada salah jugak...." You know, you put some of the blame to yourself so that your anger can be lessen because you're so ashamed of what you have done. The rationale is you never know what you have done to them that makes them acted that way. Maybe it's because how we behaved in the past or maybe they 're just having a bad day. Well, you might SUFFER for awhile but after a little bit of practicing. you'll be okay :) 

Well, WHY NOT APOLOGIZING? Okay, this is my biggest flaw ever. I have this GIGANTIC EGO, so it's hard for me to say I'm sorry (on BIGGER THINGS), because I'm just not designed to be one. ahahahahahhahaha.. but I'm learning to do it. So, wish me luck people i love you. Lol. 

2. Stay away from negativity

Okay, this is basically what positive people like me *ahaks* did to make sure our life is in peace. You need to stay away form everything that gives you negativity, anger, annoyance, hatred and immoral. Including, people, habits, what you read and story that you heard. I WANT TO STRESS THAT YOU JUST NEED TO STAY AWAY BUT NOT TO THE EXTEND OF HATING AND SHUTTING PEOPLE OUT. I learned hard from my own mistakes. Shutting people down apatah lagi hating people are not going to solve your problem. You just menambahkan lagi masalah and awkwardness in your life. I pun dah start 'kawan' balik with people that I shutted them up and thankfully I masih diterima :') So, when I said you need to stay away, it means you AVOID, BUAT BODOH or LET IT GO.. ahaha Like this thing will literally mencabar because you need 100% of self-control. So that the other party tak terasa sgt. HAHA It was so damn hard, but anyway it refers back to the point no 1, and when you can do No 1, you're good to go to stay away from negativity. 

P/s: Jika anda kurangkan berpeleseran di media sosial, it will help you a lot. Because there are so many negativity and sometimes it might disappoint you.

3. Get a hobby 

So, how to kurangkan untuk berpeleseran di media sosial? Well, u need to have a hobby! Haha bingo! So these days, I really like to read, do my own makeup, and watching makeup tutorials. These are enough to fill my free time rather than being online and see how people being so annoying in the social media. Not to further explained that, but hobbies are good distraction for you. Just find anything that you like and jangan paksa yourself to do things that you dont like because each and everyone of us have different hobbies. Hence, if you think you have a weird hobby, it's okay man. We have different DNAs punnn. But but but, I dont think online is a hobby. Because, it's like a normal thing that people will do nowadays. So yeah. Haha.. If you have hobby that you can do to earn your own income, that's better. 

4. Bragging is a No. 

Selepas mengharungi onak dan duri untuk menjadi positif, kalau you got the result mcm you can feel it that you have this positive mind, do not brag and say it to other people that you are a positive person. You actually will realize how positive you're when people said things like, "Kau ni positif lah", " Dah matanglah kau sekarang".. Hahahaha well, I JUST DID BRAG. But the purpose of me writing this post is not to brag sayang sayang, but I want to tell my experience (?) well, I dont think ppl read my blog anyway heh. So, yeah just keep it to yourself. Kalau tak tahan sangat, you can always standing in front of the mirror and tell your own self about it. That might help you to lessen the kekepohan mulut you daripada bragging. Nanti daripada nak having a positive mind nnt you jadi a freak that suka berlagak and takabbur pulak. Astaghfirullahalazim... 

It does not necessarily my cara untuk jadi positive works on you too. We might approach it differently but at the end of the day, what we really want is to be positive and having a healthy life inshaaALLAH <3

Assalamualaikum. Amboi bersawang betul blog ni haha. I've been busy catching up life especially after officially became a postgrad student. My business pun tak jalan. First and foremost, Alhamdulillah for my graduation last October and everything that I've blessed with last year. I hope 2016 will be better than last year *cliche*. 

Alright, other than soalan "Kau nak kawen bila?", I got this question a lot : "Best tak sambung master?" Okay to be really honest, tak best pun. Bukan ape pun, lonely okay sambung master ni. T.T

Disebabkan kelas I campur dengan budak part-time so it's really hard for me to mingle with them. Sebab their commitment is not 100% on campus. My classmates pun ramai dah jadi bapak orang, bini orang, ada yang baru je jadi datuk... So, nampak tak? macam mana nak ajak makan malam2 kat mapley kalau macam ni? Oleh itu, kawan I mmg berubah each class and basically I close with full time student jugak. In this post, I want to share some of things you need to consider before you decide to pursue your study in postgrad.

1. Nak pilih mode ape? Research lagi senang kan?

Okay. Soalan ni memang popular and ramai yang confuse. This is my WARNING, CHOOSE YOUR MODE BETUL2. In UTM, especially in my fakulti (Fakulti Pendidikan), we have three mode of study which are: TAUGHT COURSE, MIX MODE and RESEARCH. 

TAUGHT COURSE.

Okay guys, taught course ni kerjanya memang kene masuk kelas, buat assignment, presentations etc. Pretty much like your degree years dulu senang cerita. Sebagai contoh, sepanjang tahun pengajian you need to complete 45 credit hours *depends on your program*. Dia adalah jumlah jumlah subjek yang kene ambil before you can graduate. Contohnya, like me, I need to take 3 core subjects, 4 electives, 2 uni's subjects and 2 faculty's subjects and dissertation. Oh, btw, kalau kat UTM ni, peringkat master kita tak panggil thesis ye awok awok, kita panggil di Dissertation. So, it depends on you nak susun ur jadual macam mana. Boleh pilih ikut your time, bila you bangun tido. Haha true tho. Advantage of this mode, in shaa Allah dan kebiasaanya you boleh  habiskan you punya study on time depending on how fast you want to end your study. Disadvantage pulak, kau kene datang kelas lah. For full time student, maybe takde masalah because your commitment is 100% on your study, but part-time student ni perit sikitlah. Nanti kita borak2 pasal ni. Kalau kat UTM ni, Dissertation utk taught course TAKDE PROPOSAL PRESENTATION AND VIVA HOIIII. HEAVEN.

MIX MODE

Mix mode ni gabungan dua mode lah, taught course and research. Maksudnya, you have to attend classes and do the research. Sebelum ni, I mmg pelajar untuk this mode, tapi dah tukar mode jadi TAUGHT COURSE hahaha Okay untuk mix mode ni, ur credit hour untuk kelas is basically half of taught course and dissertation. Kalau kat UTM ni, you just need to take core subjects, uni's and faculty's electives. In my opinion, untuk amik mix mode ni, you need to have prior knowledge since nanti kene buat dissertation. Eh, habis kalau amik taught course tak perlu prior knowlege lah? Haah pretty much like that sebab you'll attend many classes which will provide you with a lot of input. Kalau mix mode ni, you'll just attend core subject and basically theory class yang biasanya susah for you guys nak cari which scope for your dissertation nanti. Believe me, kadang2 habis 1 semester pun you tak tau nak buat ape kalau takde prior knowledge. So dah rugi masa kat situ. Mestilah nak habiskan master cepat2, yuran bukan murah hoi. Advantage mode ni, kelas tak banyak lah and dissertation tu you can do it on your pace along with the guidance of your sv lah kan. the disadvantage, maybe you need to prolong your study time because you knowww you ada research tau. You need to present your proposal and ada viva hockay. Pasal research ni kita discuss kejap lagi. Oh, I think mode ni sesuai jugak untuk part time student. Sebab kelas tak banyak so takde lah beban sangat. 

RESEARCH

Untuk research, you really need to be bold kalau amik this mode. Eh dont get me wrong because I heard that buat research ni mmg lonely gila. haha yelah you dont need to take classes, so takdelah kawan sangat. Kalau kat UTM ni, memang you dont have to attend class tapi setiap bulan ada 3 sessions for your research methodology class. BELIEVE ME, I have attended those classes, not fun for people yang memang have zero knowledge research methodology. You actually kene start on something baru you tahu what you gonna ask later in those sessions. And biasa kelas ni akan gabung sekali with PHD students. Okay macam mix mode, you have to present your proposal with external panel and then viva jugak with external panel. Advantage untuk mode ni, you can get duit because of research grant and doing work on your own pace. Tak terikat with date sangat. Disadvantage pulak, well, kebanyakan student research biasanya tak habis on time. at least 4 sems jugak while other people can finish it at 3 sem. Untuk orang yang nak dapatkan master dengan kadar yang segera, this mode is definitely not for you. 

So, biasanya kalau mode mix mode and research ni, orang susahhhhh nak grad on time because you're basically dealing with people *read: examiners, panel, supervisors* Well, kalau you're postrgad student, people will expect more and takkan you nak bagi seciput je. I have friends dah habiskan one year which is two semesters with research mode and then tukar to taught course sebab kerja tak jalan-jalan. Ada juga yang up till now tak grad-grad sebab SV busy, examiners tak lepas, VIVA tak lepas bla bla. I'm not saying that research or mix mode ni tak bagus, no, it would be good for you bila nak amik PHD nanti. It depends on your goal and your minat.. So, if you decide to take research for example, you dont have to worry. Janji rajin baca 30-50 artikel/journal per day, you can learn a lot actually. It'll really help you doing your research. 

2. Part time? Full Time?

Okay, issue pasal part time dengan full time ni pun masalah jugak. I'm full time student, so basically I mmg tinggal kat kolej and pergi kelas dengan jayanya. Tapi kalau part time ni biasanya orang yang dah ada kerja but they want to study at the same time. 85% of my classmates are part time student. Memang I sekelas dengan cikgu-cikgu, pegawai PPD, nazir sume. 

As full time student, apa masalah yang korang akan hadapi? Meh I list kan..

- Financial : kalau kau bukan anak menteri, memang kau sesak lah. Boleh je nak buat part time job tapi kene pandai2 lah especially yang amik taught course. 

- Assignment : Ha, pasal assignment ni mmg kontroversi sikit. Especially kalau you kene buat assignment dengan budak part time. Weh, from my experience you need to have a lot of patience and try to be understanding even if you're not.  Dorang ni biasanya akan banyak alasan sikit. Susah nak siap kerja on time sebab they've commitment yang lain. But, they're good for you because they could provide you with their experience. 

- Expectation : Biasanya orang expect lebih sikit kat budak full time ni, sebab dorang pikir kita ni 24 jam study je. Lol. Yelah budak part time kan ada kerja, so untuk full time student ni kita takde kerja so study jelah kat library sana. Haha hoi budak part time, we got life too okay?

As part time student, apa masalah yang you guys kene hadap pulak?

- Time: TIME TIME TIME, MASA MASA MASA memang masalah you guys no 1. Nak kene kerja, siapkan assignement, kalau ada family lain pulak, mana nak kene datang kelas sume. As for me, if you dah decide nak sambung belajar, you need to be prepared betul2 lah. dah kene tahu time management sikit. It's important supaya tak susah kan yourselves and other people. Please. 

-Assignment : aka quality of work. since you have a lot of commitments, you tend to buat kerja cincai2. lepas tu banyak budak part time attendance memang teruk sikit.

Looks like macam I bash budak part time kan? tapi actually if you;re full time student pun, kalau you tak tau nak manage masa, you guys pun boleh menyusahkan diri sendiri and orang lain.I ada je kawan spent most of time with other things, dia full time student jugak, Hm kerja pun so-so je. not good not good.

Ehem. So itu jela yang basic things you need to know. It depends on your priority and universiti jugak. As for me, postgrad ni mmg lah tak best, tapi daripada segi learning, it's far better than your degree years because I can see my own effort tau. Postgrad ni tak spoonfed sangat so it'll be good for your development. Seriously. Apa-apa pun, no matter where you decide nak smbung ur study, dalam negara ke overseas ke, tak kisahlah, yang penting effort kene ada. Just remember your parents, you'll be fine kalau you stumble in the middle of your study. Good luck for you guys and for me too. xoxo