I think my blog posts are too clear. Damn. My talent. Someone caught me and he complained how it happened. That guy sms me,out of blue.

''So, you moved on?''
''Yup''
''Tell me more..''
''There's no more. I moved on.That's all''
''Why?''
''Because I was wasting my time. And thanks to you my school life was sucks. So I wont make you ruin my youth too. Enough?''
''Guess you will write this whole thing in your blog''
''Guess who's right? Well if you want the credit, I'll write your name bigger.''
''No thanks.''

I did a good job because I'm not the one who started it nor who ended it. Pls behave.

i've seen many damages that had been caused by the second thoughts.
Yup,for simple-minded person like me, i became menyampah with people that always had a second thoughts. 
Cmon dude, setakat nak ajak keluar pun lu ade second thoughts, please, i advice you to stop thinking.
You think that you are cautious, matured, thoughtful person, but seriously you annoyed me. 
I mean, because of your second thought I've became left behind as you said you need time. whatever. huh whatever. 
I'm not saying that being a simple-minded person is good, but sometimes, by having second thoughts you are giving someone hope and then after your brain are blending with facts that maybe could never happen, you just destroyedddd the hope.
damn.
As a friend. you are not always right and don't over think.

so, what if someone wants something that maybe differ from what ppl usually want? Normal but yet just different. Oh, I can say sometimes it makes other miserable. I really want him but, since he is different from the others- makes me think 100times. maybe more. I can accept everything about him but I just cant help it to think what he thinks about me.  So, I went to one of my friends and said, '' Maybe he cant be yours, but when you need him, he'll be there''. At first, I can say, it is really hard to absorb what she said, but hell yeah, the truth is there. Maybe I want to have him because I cant have him yet.. It is all about my desire, not my need. I did asked about maybe he wanted to have a girlfriend and he said, he'll be banned and spend less time for his friends. well said. that's it.. I remain single.

And he's all I think about now. Maybe because he's the one who really understands me but I ask more from him.  damn, why am I so immature? He'll always by my side but I want him to be mine. You can ask many ppl to be by your side but to make them yours, it's not easy. Lately, relationships I had are not stable as they were. I dont know why. maybe I'm thinking too much and imagine things that will not happening will happen. I just dont know. One question : why is it so hard to be with the one you love and care about?

today, I made my apple milk drink!! I'm so excited because this is my first shot and I did it. BEAUTIFUL. so, now I'm so kindhearted and I want to give the recipe. it is so easy and you'll look healthy and rich (?) while you're doing it. trust me. I had this feeling too.

okay. for the recipe, you'll just need four things.RED APPLE, MILK,SUGAR and.. BLENDER. so, for the apple I think , it is the best when you peel the skin and cut into dices. as much as you want. put it into the blender. and then pour your milk ( it is served well with your full cream milk or any kind of milk that you want) into the blender. you can pour it until the apple sink or the same level as the apple's amount or as much as you want. then put one spoon of sugar. don't put too much you can get diabetes. blend and served. and there you go....

I have traveled many places even during my schooldays. i mean inside Johor. From pekan nanas, i moved to one school at muar. its quite far more than 90km. well, even though you cant tell any differences between school in pekan nanas and muar, but for me, you cant measure the differences because it was more than the earth and the sun's distance. 

oke. let me start from my kindergarten.. i'm not remember anything.. unless syukri. oh he's my bf during my kindergarten days.  the only memory still lingering in my mind is, after class, we went to play swings, and he shared his vitagen with me. we shared the same straw. kyaaa~~ so indirect kiss happened *blush* during kindergarten days, only emad still in contact with me, but that's all

next, primary school. oke. primary school nothing happened. me with my cliques jek, like bella, zul, paan, hakim and farid. yet, when evrybody at pekan nanas and wanna hangout, then we will contact to each other. paan-he had many problemsss with me. whatever. 

for my secondary school--there were bella, tiara, nabilah hussin, uje, tikah ramli, halim? paan, farid. well, its quite few but still, they have their own life. I knew what happened to them but,,, we're you know only sometimes.

my high school. oke, tbh, they kind a weird. no I'M WEIRD. well, i'm not going to explain on them. 

UITM TESL friends are awesome... they're superb the best!!! I LOVE THEM.

UTM friends.. idk but certain ppl - anith, maira, ika. ahaha.. and i'm still awkward arund my classmates fyi. but its okay, i have another 7 sems with them. 

the reasons? IDK. i'm not cool enough . HAHA

I see you cant leave ur house. Can I buy us a walkie talkie? so that we can keep talking to each other all the time. I'm sick and you're too attached. I'm still not prepared to slip out ur fingers when I am not really have a grip on you.

P/s : I wait you on my window. Find me there.

The horrible girl remembering her last time she's crying. It was a dark night. Meeting that nice boy was ripping her heart. As they looked into each other's eyes, the horrible girl remembered of their first meeting. Their hearts were fluttering and both of them barely breathing as they were trembling. But that night, it was different..  That nice boy that previously did not has a guard to call the horrible girl, at last open his mouth. Reaching out his hands ended up with falling.The stone-hearted horrible girl cant stand her view. She quickly grabbed his man's hands. Their eyes met.